Headeaches are one of the most familiar aspects of my life.
I’ve battled almost daily headaches for about three years now. They differ in severity, location, and length. Some would be considered migraines and others are not quite that severe. I also have a very high pain tolerance I’m told.
It’s a battle that has become seemingly impossible to win. While that can be discouraging at times, I’ve truly learned to live with this pain.
People ask all the time how I’m doing and whether or not I have a migraine and I truly appreciate the care and concern that people have for me, however…I never feel like I can answer honestly.
I don’t want to be “babied”. I don’t want to be given special treatment because I have this problem diagnosed as “Chronic Migraines” (which really just means the doctors have no clue what the problem is so you just have to deal with it).
The past few years have taught me to live life like a normal person. They have taught me that to let the pain control me will result in a life of defeat and, most likely, in perpetual laziness.
I once heard someone suffering with chronic pain say, “If you have this, you have to be strong and if you aren’t yet, you will be.”
How accurate that statement is. You have to be strong in order to deal with chronic pain, whatever it may be. It isn’t easy. But you also cannot let it control you or else you will be miserable.
I go to work and have headaches, but I work anyway because I have to. That’s life, that’s how you survive, that’s what’s necessary. Regardless of the pain, I’ve learned to function in every day living. Why? Because I have to.
Now that isn’t to say there are days where it is SO bad that I have to lay in bed and hope I can fall asleep and that waking up will result in less pain—those days happen. There have been days I’ve thought it would be better to be dead than feel the pain I feel, there have been days where I have hemorrhages in my eyes or where I vomit, there have been days where I just absolutely cannot function and no medication does anything to lessen the pain. Those days happen and there is no “being strong” and powering through it so you can live life. Nonetheless, there’s always the prospect of a new day, hopefully an easier day, offering new opportunity to continue on with living life to the full.
I hope this is an encouragement to others dealing with Chronic pain. You can do this. You can still live life, you can still succeed. It WILL be harder for you than most people, but you’re stronger than most people because you deal with chronic pain.